Gwarlroge wrote:Metacrock wrote:But that's not really true and it's not really the way I see things.
How do you see things?But It is on the surface, the way it would look to other people who can't see what's going on inside me with God.
I guess eventually I'll get to a point where that will be healing and I wont need to remember good statements people make about me.
Hmm...why do you need to remember those statements now?
(I don't mean to be obtuse. You've said before that this is the biggest spiritual issue of your life, and I don't want to treat it lightly, like I have all the answers.)
every day for the past 10 years I've tried to argue wtih people who tell me I'm an iddiot. everything I say they act like it's stupid. so I have started beleiving it is all I ever hear. no one defends me no one helps me I'm alone. I am the only allie I have to face them down. they come at me 12 at a time and say real stupid insulting when I get mad ethey "O you are so so how you are God isnt' eral you can't be nice to me."

